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On the night of April 4. I was able to drink coffee with my fellow lanparty mates Timmy and chongcute. We went for a quick coffee break at breakfast club which was 1minute away from my home. There I ordered a cup off warm coffee. And before I went home around 11:45pm my heart beat started to beat so fast. And I said to my self “I’m so dead” and I was right I was not able to sleep the whole night. I was awake for 31 hours. I spend my day with Toni my beautiful girlfriend. And after our long date. I finally rested and woke up after 2hours. And it hit me I have insomnia! The worst thing I would ever want for this summer. For now im struggling to heal my insomnia. But im still having a hard time doing that. I always find myself in the most worst scenarios. Well thats all for now I do hope my insomnia will go away.

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Im blogging for January 2, 2008. Well started my day being sad due to blah blah blah. Well around quarter to 2 im outside Toni’s crib. His dad lock them out but luckily Toni found the key and was able to go out. So after waiting for Toni to take a bath she was out around 10mins after. Because she didn’t took a bath. So we went to the mall ate snack at pancake house and went to my cribs afterwards to get some jacket so yeah Toni went to my cribs again. So we went to Chimes afterwards and bought her Havianas. And afterwards went to ADDU Roxas gate to have her hair cut. Well this is really a new look for her she know has the same hair cut as Mariel of the PBB. Well it does really look good on her. Well around 6:30 she was done taking her haircut so we went back to the mall and was raining really bad. Luckily i have my jacket and the jeep we rode let us go down inside the mall so we really didn’t get wet at all. Lucky day really. Laterz!

I cant say finally 2008 im not even expecting anything from 2008 except for my age increasing by 1 again. Another year another set of challenges for us. Well with God’s help we can success in this challenges God will always provide a way we just have to seek for it. Well my December 31 ‘07 is near perfect hoping my January 1 ‘08 will be perfect too. I didn’t like my 2007 much hopefully my 2008 will be as good as my 2006! Well thats all! Laterz! Happy new year once again!

I met up with ding and hans today for lunch. Well I was the first one who arrived at the mall while walking tears just kept on dropping from my eyes. I still remember the times, days that were there together. I can always remember me waiting in the 3rd floor looking downwards in the gates for Toni to arrive. But all is gone now. Never felt so much pain in my life. Toni was everything to me, she was my companion in everything I do, shes my only ally and now I have no one like her. No one to make me feel I’m wanted, no one to make me feel I’m special. Getting heart broken really hurts no questions about it. Nothing feels right anymore. I feel so down.. My world is rotating around her i shut my doors just for her and now as always its my lose. I love you very much Ton hope felt and know that. I wish you didn’t leave me like this. Loneliest December ever.

I was surfing the internet one day and got directed to this boatangel website. Well the website accepts Boat Donations and this Charity Boat Donations becomes the money they will used to film Christian DVD’s that will be given to everyone who orders it. Yep you heard me right Free DVDs! Well one thing for sure this Christian DVDs will be very helpful nowadays to help spread God’s good news to others. BoatAngel had already released some DVDs which are free of course. You can order them via their website and will be shipped to you free! So donate a boat now and help spread the Kingdom of God!

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Well to make things short Toni broke up with me today around 12AM or so. I think its final this time though. I did understand her part its going to be for the best in her part not actually the same in my part. Who could ever accept losing someone and be OK with it right? Well too bad for me i broke my heart again but the supplier doesn’t want to give warranties anymore. Ive invested so much love in that heart of mine but now its broken. I cried so hard last night didn’t got any sleep at all. Its really hard accepting it but can’t blame her for what she wants i ain’t like her all i ever wanted was her but she wanted so much more in life. I just closed my world out to her because i was so deeply inlove. Didn’t think much that something like this would happen I was so convinced that our relationship was so strong that it wouldn’t break so easily well Karlo think again. Ive experience so much pain with Toni but yet I’m still here fighting for it, love does make people stupid in many ways. Well I’m surely one of them I didn’t prepare anything for me if we break up I was so damn convinced that she’s the one. So here I am alone again. Hurt as always. I lose as usual. Gotta learn to be alone for real this time. I want to learn to live my life on my own. Love is a very happy feeling the best actually but its also the worsts and people lose a lot of things when love turns around. I guess we both did our part hopefully. Not enough love? I don’t think so. I poured out all my love for this relationship to work. I lived my life trying to make Toni happy everyday. Since thats the only way I know I could be somewhat similar to his dad which is the man he would like to meet. Anyways thats that.

Well to start off i woke up around quarter to 12 almost in time for lunch. I was really expecting i was going to be with toni today since she kept on reminding me that on 26 we will be going out well guest what.. She had already a lot of plans today and i bet she already forgot we have plans today. The worst part of it she doesn’t even know how to ask permission. Well lets see since you wanted it that way… I really hope you do ask permission next time and so you know i really don’t trust you at all. Thanks for making me very special. I did feel it a lot. Thanks for making my day so boring. I didn’t plan anything for today since i thought i was going to be with you. I really hope you do grow up. Since you never grow up all you do is be like a kid to me. We keep on fighting over the same thing and nothing really changes. I hope you know that..

I’m so bored! I’m so f**ked up!

Well my computer got stupid again for no reason. So i decided to remove everything. I inverted my motherboard so now it looks like a BTX type of motherboard similar to chiboy’s. It was a lot easier to hide the wires this way. and its a lot cleaner. But theres one hard part which is the 4pin connector to the motherboard. I did gave me a headache. Installed XP without problems. Had everything working again. Hope its going to be stable for a long time. My HTPC is also on its way. Stay tuned!

I wasn’t able to blog for a while because we celebrated our Christmas party in Kidapawan. After our 2nd LanParty i was home around 6am got to bed 7am and had to wake up 10am to travel to Kidapawan. We arrived in Kidapawan around 1pm i was asleep the whole trip. And from 1pm - 6pm i was also asleep. Need to recover from the 6pm-6am LanParty.

The Family Reunin Christmas Party was a blast! It was on December 23, 2007 at Kuya Eric’s crib. Lots of our family member was there present. We have our very own Deal or No Deal for both children and adults. Wawa was the player for the kids while Achi Edna was the player for the adult department. We have lots of games there and lots of yummy foods. At the end of the party we exchanged our gifts and my family gave our gifts to all the family member present and the fun part begins when mom will give away P1, P5, P10 plus candies to everyone its a free for all event! And that ended the Christmas Party and we all went back to our house in kidapawan.

The following morning we went home in Davao again thats on December 24, 2007 to prepare stuff for December 25 the real Christmas the day our Savior Jesus Christ is born. God bless to all!